Thursday, November 15, 2012

Following my intuition

Have you ever had that feeling that something was just meant to be? I've had a series of these feelings for months now and have mindfully chosen not to ignore them.  I'm embracing these little intuitions because I trust in them and I know that there must be a reason for them. It's really exciting listening to yourself and being mindful of these feelings. It really is something I wish everyone could experience. Isn't it funny that we have to mindfully do so?

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I've been trying to pin point where it all began and I think the turning point for me was when I made the decision to have a home birth with R. That was a huge decision. No one in my family or close circle of friends had even considered it. Heck most of them thought and still think I am crazy. I completely stepped out of a comfort zone (for many, not me) and it made it that much more exhilarating for me. I was stepping out of the norm and doing something I completely believed in. I knew that I could have a successful home birth within my control and standing up to the naysayers really boosted my confidence. That decision was kind of a huge deal for me and I was darn proud of it. It just felt right at the time and so I went with it. It was where I was meant to be.

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I always wanted to dive in to yoga and feel like meeting Amanda, owner of Little Lotus Yoga, was perfect timing. I signed up for one of her pre-natal yoga classes and absolutely loved it.  Years ago, I remember wondering what all the fuss about yoga was. I wasn't ready then. Now, I have fully embraced yoga and this new way of life. It's amazing! I think my prior experience in Hypnobirthing with E's birth had set me up for some understanding and is why I initially fell in love with yoga so quickly. They are complimentary practices that I could relate to. Hearing stories from my sister who dove in to yoga while studying out west always intrigued me. When she would send stories by email from her trip to India, I was even more excited and knew that this was something that I really enjoyed too. So I followed my gut and participated in a yoga class and I believe it had a huge impact on my healthy pregnancy and birth and now, my well-being.

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Hubby and I were having a hard time narrowing down baby names near the end of my pregnancy. We each had a name we liked but didn't fancy each others. One day while I was driving I was thinking of a name Hubby had chosen and created a name out of it. It was funny how it just came to me out of nowhere.  After weeks of texting each other names and replies of, "no way", "ya right", and "um no", I texted Hubby that day and asked, "What do you think about R?" and he replied, "I love it". It wasn't until I got home and looked up the meaning that it had both an Irish meaning (Hubby's family background) and a Sanskrit meaning (ancient language of India) that I loved. So that was that. R's name was chosen (should he be a boy). It was meant to be.

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The fact that I looked up the book "Buddhism for Mothers : A calm approach to to caring for yourself and your children" when I was pregnant and then my sister came to visit and had taken it out of the library for me, thinking I might like it? Meant to be. I didn't read it the first time I had it my hands so I asked her to take it out again for me six weeks later. Everything I read in the book was what I was looking for at that time in my life. I loved it.

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Big, exciting things like this keep happening. Stars keep aligning. I can only attribute them to my confidence and trust in my mind and body and my ability to listen to them. There are more swirling around in my head and only a matter of time until I discover their ultimate plan. I'm listening and following.

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