Friday, October 19, 2012

Mindfulness and mothering

Sometime over the last few months I feel like I've woken up and I am more myself than I have ever been.

I've written about my goal to 'just be' on a few occasions here. I have been working towards taking one day at a time, being a more mindful person and parent and enjoying all the small moments over and have kept this in the back of my mind for over a year now.

Then R was born and I started struggling with E. Feeling helpless to his behaviour was something I hadn't experienced since he was a crying infant. I felt out of sorts, unmotivated and overwhelmed. This was when at six weeks postpartum I decided to head home to my parents for a week for a bit of a break and a change of scenery.

Before I left I asked my sister to pick up a book at the local library for me. "Buddhism for Mothers : A calm approach to to caring for yourself and your children" was a book that I came across on Pinterest months and months ago. Coincidentally, my sister brought it up with her when she arrived during the week of R's birth, thinking I might like it (she gets me!). I didn't get a chance to read it then, but it was now that I needed it and the public library here didn't carry it.

It was just what I was looking for and I knew that it would be.  I needed to refocus and recharge before I returned home and with this book I felt refreshed and ready to tackle my new life as a mother of two. 

When I started this blog, I felt like I Found My Feet was a perfect name because I wanted to share my experiences as a rookie but confident mother foremost.  Now, I almost feel like I have found my feet all over again. My new found mindfulness and energy is amazing me. I feel like I learn something new about myself everyday. I'm finding it kind of mind boggling and out if this world at times, but I'm rolling with it and embracing it and excited to see where it takes me.

Thursday, October 18, 2012


It started shortly after R was born. Something, we figure, he created to keep himself busy while we were fussing over a new family member. We would hear countdowns and the sounds of blast-offs. It would zoom around us, this way and that. It would shoot off to the sky and crash into the couches.

Sasha is long gone. Kippen hit the road too. But I think Rocketship is here for the long haul.

Rocketship travels everywhere with us. When we went to my parents for a week, Rocketship took the train with us. Rocketship got to meet E's cousins and even helped fight some of his toy battles. When we go to the grocery store, library or park, rocket ship is always there to lend a helping hand. Rocketship helps eat dinner and at the end of the day needs a bath too.

You see, Rocketship is E's hand. And while some may think it's silly or weird, I tend to think my kid is a genius for using his imagination to keep himself busy. Rocketship comes out at times that may otherwise be used for acting out or crankiness because of boredom.

I love rocket ship.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Preschooler in da house!

We signed E up for a preschool program for the Fall. It's only once a week for two hours, but it's a great chance for me to get some stuff done without a toddler preschooler in tow and a chance for him to get away from me, spend some time with children his own age and do some different activities.

Today didn't start off as planned. We kind of slept in, but I was able to turn a parenting fail in to a super mom opportunity and he only arrived five minutes late! Phew! I was extra nervous that rushing him would not help with the separation but as I was saying goodbye to him and taking off his jacket he ran in to the room without me and didn't look back! Phew, again! I'm glad we went to the orientation last week and he was familiar with his surroundings. 

I enjoyed the freedom it felt like being the Mother of one easy baby for two hours and had a nice long hot shower and got some shopping in. Shopping for me! And I even got to try the clothes on! I know!

There was no time for pictures in the morning but as soon as we got home and put his new crafts on the fridge I was able to get some great shots for a little tradition I wanted to start (and I have been seeing all over Pinterest). He had a great day and we are both looking forward to next week!

Doesn't he look SO BIG?!